well.. i got a busy remaining week. two interviews each day.. zoom interview and personal interviews except for friday because i have spanish and one zoom interview. i hope the salvation army actually gives me a chance this time (i've interviewed with them a few times before but that was when i lived in burnsville- so they more than likely thought that i didn't have as much experience as i do now- since nobody would really hire me for most of the time i lived there). that's one of the biggest reasons why i prefer living here compared to burnsville- i wasn't constructive in burnsville and it was really bad for my mental health because an idle mind IS the devil's playground when it comes to my mind in particular. i just hope people continue to see me ACTUALLY persisting and help me continue to persist when it comes to working actual jobs in general- seeing as amanda and my mom don't encourage me worth a damn to be constructive because me looking like an unemployed vulnerable mindless adult just benefits them so they actually feel necessary and useful when they're not even fucking doing anything personally but being a huge clingy, negative, goaless weight on me- NEWSFLASH: I am NOT gonna make you look more "caring" and "loving" in life. if you haven't figured that out by now.. YOU'RE STUPIDER THAN I THOUGHT. i know my grandma would be disappointed with amanda for being so damn selfish and not having the time or motivation to really HELP me get further in life because she didn't find any benefit in it for herself. maybe i'll actually get a damn job because i've had at least one interview a week for the last couple of months i think. someone has to eventually give me a chance. it's not like i'm a damn criminal or a person completely lacking experience anymore now that i finally managed to find an apartment outside of the subsidized shithole i used to be at with the obsessed caretaker who just cleaned when he found an opportunity to stalk me. he was COINCIDENTALLY fired when i was told to live elsewhere. isn't that a COINCIDENCE? i don't know or care where that freak is now. i honestly haven't thought about him since just now. i'm not sure if they assume i'm a liability for having a cane- that's the only reason i can think of for employers not hiring me since i DO have experience now.
..and i also forgot probably one of the BIGGEST things i should be "grateful" for- I FORGOT THAT I LAID IN A DAMN COMA FOR 6 MONTHS AND THE DICKS IN BUFFALO HOSPITAL TOLD MY MOM AND GRANDMA TO DISCONNECT THE LIFE SUPPORT BECAUSE IF I EVER CAME OUTTA IT- I'D BE A VEGETABLE ALL MY LIFE! so either vegetables can talk and function like a normal person or the docs in buffalo don't know a DAMN THING. when you're in a coma.. YOU'RE BASICALLY DEAD. YOU CAN'T WALK OR TALK OR EVEN MOVE. KEPT ALIVE BY MACHINES- WHICH THE GENIUSES IN BUFFALO NY WANTED TO DISCONNECT ALL THE TIME ACCORDING TO MY GRANDMA. AN EXAMPLE OF THE LACK OF INTELLIGENCE IN BUFFALO.
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